The demon

That little sound evokes deepest desires of the heart, and every time it unfurls in my ears, there is a sadness and desperation that takes over me. In spite of however cheerful I could manage to appear, there is this loneliness that always stays in my heart. I can feel it living in my body, in my very spirit, changing forms faster than blink of an eye. I can feel its existence when I hate someone for nothing, when I feel sad when there is every reason to be cheerful, when I feel lonely in maddening herd of friends. And every second that I try to fight it, to win back my happiness, I realize that I am fighting myself. I am fighting a battle with this demon which claims to be me.

The demon sleeps within, and it wakes up without warning. It takes over me. It tells me that I am bad, that I am imperfect. It is my fault for whatever I don't have and it is my punishment to suffer. The lack which created it manifests itself in hatred for others, in guilts and shame for acts where I have played no role. The demon tells me that it is fine to have and nurture my fears, to run away from them, and it is alright to tell lies. It tells to be someone I am not. And when I allow it to grow, it tells me that I don't exist. The existence always belonged to the demon, and I am just a thought image, the shadow which has no independent reality.

But today that demon is getting weak, for the light has been shone on him. It can't stand light of recognition. It rules when it is dark, when you are blind to see that you are not him. But when you realize that this demon is nothing but an unholy accumulation of your guilts and fears, and when you realize that you are are bigger than these petty mistakes of past, this demon begins to die. It vanishes in a flash. And then what remains is pure love for yourself and pride in your existence. That is when you regain your freedom, and win back the happiness which was always yours. That is where virtues are nested and life becomes the the pleasant journey it is supposed to be.

The demon is being defeated. Prepare for celebrations. Prepare for king's arrival in the world.

Invention of the human anatomy

It's been a long time since human invention. God did it once, over a period of time, but now I think someone must attempt the feat again. So here I am in my quest to reinvent the human skeleton system. And I have already started. Here is what I have done till now and what are my further plans :

1. I Figured out the core structure of skeleton system.

2. I invented the human skull

3. I invented the chest cavity, and left it to evolve into a rib cage.

4. I invented the scapula, two of them.

5. I have fitted the scapula on back of the chest cavity, both of them.

1-5 is what I've done till now. Now about my plans from 6-18 :

6. I will invent human spine, and will take a gooood amount of time to do that, so that'll be two points.

7. Still onto the spine.

8. I'll then invent the pelvis.

9. I'll fit the pelvis and link it with the spine.

10. I will then invent femur and fit it on the till completed skeleton.

11. I will go on to make tibia and fibula and put them in their right places.

12. Then I will invent the human foot !!

13. From there, I must invent the clavicle. It will then link scapula and sternum.

14. Humerus must be invented next, in our quest to make the human hand.

15. And of course, it has to be fitted in its right place :)

16. Then will come the time to invent radius & Ulna.

17. And then the human hand !

18. Fitting them all together, we can conclude our invention.

And so will arrive our moment of EUREKA !

Guys, the journey till now has not been easy, and it will pose great challenges as we move on. But with your support and love, and by god's unconditional generosity, I will complete the daunting task.

Thank you guys, I must now get back to work.